One of the biggest guilt trips I give myself is that I couldn’t breastfeed Louise. I completely understand my situation and that I did what was best for everyone involved, and that things happened that I could not control. But every time Louise gets sick, I wonder…would she be getting sick this much if I had breastfed? Obviously being in day care ups the risk of sickness but I just can’t get that guilty thought out of my head.
On the plus side, she gets super cuddly when she’s sick.
She hasn’t slept on me in ages (weird how quickly things change in that department, and how easily I forgot how much I loved it), so although I was sad she was sick, I soaked up the moment as much as I could.